In this turmoil of emotion,
a paradox I confess,
I love hate you,
this certain guilt of my hatred,
so complex, yet I feel.You're the catchy tune,
endlessly on repeat,
Echoing through my thoughts,
skipping no beat.With every phone ring.
my pulse accelerating.
Subconsciously I know it's won't be you.anymore.
You're that forbidden drug, dangerously sweet,
A fleeting high, my heart's deceit.
You are the rollercoaster,
thrilling yet dire,
A descent into chaos,
my unquenched fire.
I tell myself
"it's not worth fighting for"
Why must it be him?
Why do I strongly hate but love at the same time?He loved me
He did everything......
Yet it wasn't enough
Like A garden so tangled,
with roses that bite,
Their beauty numbs the pain,
blurring wrong and right.
I love hate you,
in the shadows of my heart,You've caged it, then vanished, tearing it apart.
I feel mature,
But I think I am all the way in the beginning now.
Í don't know what love is
I don't know what hate is
This long lost feeling
I don't know what to do
Whether to
LOVE
Or
HATEI long to release you, to let the memories fade,
Yet I clutch at the ghost of the love we made.
Yet I hold on to
this ghost of your touch
This ghost of your soul
This ghost of your voice
this ghost of YOU
That I am holding on to
How do I let go?
How do I let go for your own sake?
Why does this hatred of
mine feel like guilt?I try to convince myself you're nothing but air,
Yet absence makes the
heart falter in despair.
I tell myself it doesn't hurt, I shouldn't care,
But without your touch, I'm gasping for air.
Indeed your long gone ancient presence has suffocated me
Relentless without my space
You invaded my world
I have nothing left.
You took all my time away.But why does it feel more suffocating
Without you?
Only a love
so fierce could slice so deep,
Must have been that kiss,
a leap so steep.I profess indifference,
yet when you're near,
The defeated maria begging you to stay, but the egotistical maniac
Has won
This war
I have been fighting
since the moment I saw you
bound by my fear.
Don't stay......Each departure cuts through the core,
A soul-deep ache that begs for more.Only such love could torment so,
Only such love deals this heavy blow.
Your kiss, a fiery mark upon my skin,
It's burning into my skin.
A sweet agony, a torturous win.Love, an exquisite pain,
sharp and precise,
I couldn't give you the love; the power to destroy me, I couldn't trust that you won't use this power.Only this love
could exact such a price.
So here I stand, scarred but bold,
A wounded warrior, a wounds not healed
So yes like you said "You don't deserve my tears" I really don't
I am the villain of us
Within this love's cruel, tight hold.
A deadly kiss, a binding link,
Only love can hurt like this, more than we think. Destroy me & you
Too much hatred you have for me
And I have for you.
The Guilt of my Hatred.
By : Maria .W
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The End of Us
PoetryOnly this love could exact such a price. So here I stand, scarred but bold, A wounded warrior, a wounds not healed So yes like you said "You don't deserve my tears" I really don't I am the villain of us Within this love's cruel, tight hold. A dea...