I stood in line at the grocery store with food in my cart, feeling my stomach rumble. Fasting for Thanksgiving seemed like a smart idea at the beginning of the day, but now I was just starving and cranky.
As I loaded the items on the checkout, I looked at the magazine stand. On one front page was Miles with another girl that I had never seen before. My blood ran cold as I stared at the cover. 'New girlfriend for Kit?' the title read.
Miles and I weren't dating, but I thought we had something. Or maybe this was his plan all along to lead me on. Unable to stop myself, I picked up the magazine to buy.
Thanksgiving was today, but the only thing I could think about was Miles. If I wasn't with him the last few days, I was thinking about school, and I couldn't have that. That stressed me out too much, so Miles was a welcomed distraction. We had not talked about the kiss we had but his magazine made me want to bring it up, even if I was scared to.
"That will be $51.23," the cashier said.
I shook my head to clear it, then gave her my credit card.
She rang it and handed it back as I put the bags into the cart. "Have a good day," she said with a smile before I walked out of the store.
I smiled at her, then walked to the parking lot, trying to find Mom's car. She wanted to carpool for running errands but obviously; she forgot to pick me up.
I pulled out my phone to text her, but noticed it was dead. My phone was always dead at the most inopportune times. With a sigh, I sat down on the sidewalk to wait.
The warm sun hit my face which made me grateful that it was fairly warm today. To pass time, I pulled out the magazine and flipped through its pages.
I don't think I had ever picked up a gossip magazine before. The bold print and bright colors of the pages pull me deeper into articles by the passing moment. Quickly I got to the part about Miles' 'secret' lover named Izzy and I couldn't pry my eyes from it, reading every single word on the page.
My stomach sank to the ground as tears pricked my eyes. I was a game to him. Seeing this article confirmed that I couldn't be his friend anymore. It was too hard. After that kiss, I was finding it impossible.
Breaking me from my thoughts was a body standing over me. I looked up at Mom with a smile.
"Ready to get out of here?" Mom asked.
I nodded as I got up from the ground and brushed myself off. I was just surprised that I didn't have to wait longer.
"Sorry I'm late, had to get gas," she said, jingling keys that had a million key fobs on them. She sighed as we walked towards the car. "No, it's a problem. I was late. Listen, I know I haven't been present for the past year, but I want you to know that I love you. I'm doing all of this for you and your siblings."
I frowned, not sure if I wanted to have this conversation in a parking lot. This heart-to-heart conversation was better in a private place. I knew she was trying to provide, but sometimes I just wanted her to be a mom. "I know."
"As I have thought about what I was grateful for this past week, all I could think of were you three. I've missed so much after your father died." Her eyes welled up with tears. "I don't want to miss any more about your life."
I grabbed her hand and gave a squeeze. Finally, she realized what I've been hoping for. My eyes welled up with tears as my heart sped up. "I love you so much, Mom. I miss you, I miss this."
She kissed my hand as she turned the car on. "I'm going to try be more present, for all of you. I don't want to wake up one day and find that you three have grown up and moved away. I want to treasure what I have with you, now. I love you."
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Too Keen For Me
RomanceIsla, haunted by trauma, lived in solitude, refusing to let anyone crush her heart again. Miles was running from his own demons, seeking refuge from his storm in a small town that told him that this time, things would be better. When they literally...