Heartless and Disorientated

boarding pass

i dont want to go down this road

i dont want to board thi train

but life is a one way ticket to the end of the road

and i really just don't care

i don't care that I can't sleep anymore- 

that i'm just lying there wide awake

infinities paying on repeat inside my head

like a little movie screen-

except im at the part where i wake up screaming

and i dont even think that i was asleep in the first place

there are heavy bags under my eyes because i'm afraid to close them

and when i finally do it never lasts

why cant i just get over my life?

why must I get blamed as the cause of everybody elses prolbrems every day

i just want this world to end

I want to start anew

but that only ever happens in wonderland

i don't want to go down this road

but this world isnt giving me any other choice

i don't want to board this train

but ive gone and done it anyway

this is a choice I would never have made

they say this is destiny

but theres no way this can be the end

there must be more to it

but now im on this train

and im almost at my final stop

and i dont think i have any other choice but to get off.