I'd love to fear;
what I didn't know,
for curiosity these days
have no fun to show;
and I'd love to know;
what I've always feared,
so fiercely I'd pave,
on the green light go;
then I'm straightly minding
all the traps they've hidden,
how I'll pass these confusions
with no fear of fallin',
but with fear of hopin';
never lied but holding,
on the promise I'm given,
'bout the end's so golden;
for never desired,
I only did hope;
I'll only payback;
what's been bestowed,
maybe lesser than fair,
maybe fairer than less,
for as long as I live,
is when I'm dying the most;
then I'm freely winding,
though my faith's forbidden;
'said it's all my delusion;
and it's hell I'm callin';
now I'm downward sloping,
not a chance they're believing,
'least no fear 'cause I know
I'm no saved nor forgiven.
