Love Complications

Bleeding Love

Pained, troubled, unwanted- all these things keeps crawling back to me again & again time to time, makes me feel like no one wanted me. I am the type of girl that people either will flirt or hate, maybe I am not made for true love, no one can love me, ever. I was right I shouldn't have expected those romance novels fantasies to become real in my life, like I will find someone who love me without asking anything in return. No matter how much I try to give people, their expectation always increase with never ending. I feel like my heart is going to come out of my chest, it feel like someone has grabbed my heart ripping out mercilessly. I want this pain to go way, my heart to stop clenching for something that was never mine, mine- I was wrong to think that someone will say me those & be only mine forever, be possessive for me but this is real world such things don't happen in real world. Happy ending are for stories who aren't finished yet- her thoughts were every where, she was clutching her heart trying take pain away but it was there & these tears don't stop, how much they will come out & for what reason when she knew this will happen one way or other.

I tried to make this relation worth while but never thought this day will come & like this she wasn't expecting this will happen, why nobody wants me, was I not worth anyone's love?, is it so difficult to love me? No one will love me like I wanted, will I be always be everyone's second & rejected choice? If I cut my heart out full of love for them & place in their hand, will it be enough for them? If I bleed to death for them without anything in return of it, will it be enough for them? She keep scolding herself that she will be not worth of anyone's love that's why nobody loves her. Her sniffs & sobs were growing all over the room but no one was there to hear, she keep remembering everything happen today

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She joined her office today & the team brought some excellent promotion & sales ideas besides her manager liked the idea & approved it, she was happy & top of it, she & her best friend were meeting today after hectic of so many working days. She was meeting her friend after there wedding day, they were meeting at their favourite coffee shop name 'make my day'. They were laughing entering inside the coffee house

"I'll order something & you find us sits"

"sure & Tania I want cold coffee"

"yes mam"

Sam only chuckled for her friend response, she was looking for sits. Her eyes wander but then it stopped on a booth, when she looked again closely, she gasped, her eyes went wide, she couldn't believe what she was seeing, she can hear her heartbeats like they were slowing down, her throbbing heart & eyes were about to give up & tears going to spill out, when she heard her friends voice

"did you find us sits?"

"uh......"

Her eyes diverted to her friend & she blinked out her tears composing herself. She took away from there saying

"can we go to my house?"

"ya, I just came to tell there is no cold coffee available here"

She took hold of her hand dragging her away out of coffee house, glancing back for one last time. When they reach at Sam's house, Sam was disturbed but her friend keep talking. Sam was distracted while making coffee, she was pouring coffee disturbed in her thoughts that she didn't realise hot coffee fell on her hands & burned, she shrieked. Tania ran to her putting her hand in cold water, she looked at her & tears were pooling in her best friend's eyes. She made her sit on chair while applying cream on her hand, she saw her friend trying to not to let her tears out, biting her lip to stop the pain, composing her hard