[13] Things Only I Know

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It was wednesday nightI wished everything will go rightThese past few days, I've been feeling so lightSimple things makes me cry and makes me cite

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It was wednesday night
I wished everything will go right
These past few days, I've been feeling so light
Simple things makes me cry and makes me cite

I called for a cool off
Because I cannot take it anymore
I used myself as the reason of the cool off
Because I don't want any argument anymore

I stated that these past few days, I wasn't in the mood
I told you that these past few days, I was up to no good
Was it the real reason though? Not in the mood?
I said "It's just me", But there's a reason for my mood

That night, I was so mad
And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad
I was saying all the hurt while I was mad
My words shot to kill while I'm mad

I told my Sister about the cool off
Hoping that She'll still understand with some info off
My Sister said "That's unfair"
That made me doubt myself so unfair

I wasn't unfair, I have every reason to act
I wasn't unfair, I have every receipt to act
I was unfair, That's because I put everyone else first
I was unfair, Not to others but myself

My Sister's judgement is fine
But there's something that doesn't seem fine
You started to draw lines
While I was erasing mine's

I was overthinking not over nothing
I'm not that dumb to go crazy about nothing
I was silent, But I saw something
I kept telling myself "That's nothing"

You got your account banned
People behind me were holding guns
I wish that way before, I continued to rant
Because then I wouldn't be armed

You used your second account
That before, I didn't know of
You used it as your main account
But there's still something I did not know of

During the cool off, I stalked your account
Checked the reactions on your posts as I count
I saw two accounts that seem familiar to count
I got curious, Clicked it and my heart grunts

The one was given the last name of "Restricted"
And the other was "Unloved"
What do you mean by "Restricted"?
And what do you mean by "Unloved"?

I'm crying on my bed trying to remain silent
For the longest time, I remained silent
I didn't have anyone to vent
I even let my back be bent

What do you use those other accounts for?
You told me about your second account before
I'm an overthinker, You know
But there's still two that did not know

I'm your partner, So why do you lie?
Why are you hiding things as I die?
I'm your partner and I don't understand why
Can you at least elaborate so I can understand why?

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