THE STRANDED

[11] Everything Spun Around

You left me on read
I wonder where you have been
I opened the game and saw you playing
That made me mad more than I've ever been

We always argue about that wrong-doing
All I'm asking is for you to do it
The one thing that I've been asking
Is for you to tell me just before you play it

I got mad, I told you to just play
Told you we always argue about it, And It's tiring
I didn't quite expect that game to be played
Now it took longer, All I feel is aching

You were the one who's wrong
But why were you the one who's gone?
It was your fault
But it felt like it was my fault

It was a matter of how I reacted
And a matter of how you handled it
It was a matter of how I approached the issue
And a matter of how you fixed it

The first night seems okay
And what I mean by it's okay, I didn't cry
The first night seems fine
And what I mean by it's fine, My tears didn't dried

I wonder what you must be thinking
You've told me once before that I managed to sleep
Now I wonder if you're thinking
That I slept in peace even though I didn't even sleep

It's five AM
I wonder if today is the day that will end the game
I woke my sister up, Called her name
I went back to sleep as he went to prepare for herself

I woke up with your message on my phone
I read it and it made me go blur
I almost dropped my phone
You said I'm broken, In your eyes, I'm no longer worth

I sat up from my bed
My chest felt so heavy, I'm about to be dead
I got down and walked towards the door behind the grid
I told you I don't get what you meant, Now I'm dead

You messaged me once more
Saying you don't want this no more
Asking for a breakup, It broke me more
It felt like a ripped skin that's still sore

I was about to cry
My heart was so heavy as time got by
All I said was "okay"
But behind it, I'm not okay

It felt so heavy
Heavier than heavy
It kind of felt deadly
Felt like a storm surrounded me, So heavy

That's when I heard my name
I woke up, My sister was calling my name
I cried while I was asleep during the game
I thought about you that much for me to dream about dim

I continued my day
It went so long for just a day
I let the day pass me like no other days
I did not see any color that day, All were grey

It even went as far as going to the restroom
Just to relieve my eyes from the gloom
It even went as far as going to other schools
Just to relieve the loneliness I felt like a fool

Now, I'm longing for that word too
But I can't just keep asking about it too
You'll surely get irritated and tired too
Just the same as others did too

I've said my sorry
Even though I shouldn't be sorry
I've said my apology
I let my guards down and sent that apology

You didn't decline it
But didn't quite accept it
I won't get tired about it
I'm stronger than I think, I hope I can handle it

I didn't know what you felt while you were ignoring me
But still, You ignored me and let me be
I kept on overthinking who you're with, He?
But still, You ignored me and let me be

I owned up to my mistakes
The mistakes, Valid mistakes
Your mistake was still the main mistake
I still see it as a valid mistake

I don't want us going into circles
Fighting over joystick and circles
That's why I got mad
For us to avoid going into circles

All I'm asking for
All I was asking for
Was for you to ask me first for
Not for you to instantly go and make me wait for

I was deeply hurt by this fight
But I will stay right by your side
The brightest day, But I didn't see any light
That's because I was in the darker side

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to
I'm sorry, I didn't quite handle it well too
I'm sorry, I didn't have to do that too
I'm sorry, I acted tough in front of you

You know my weakness is you
You're all I need to complete my day, You
That's why when I didn't talk to you
My day shattered as I kept thinking of you

Everything spun around
We were so happy now so sad
Everything flipped upside down
We were having fun now crashed down bad