𝐂𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐘 𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐕𝐄 | 𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐑𝐃 𝐖𝐀𝐘 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑

Nine

Wen I had got home I stripped myself bare naked.
I jumped in the shower to clean myself off.
I got out and didn't bother to dry myself.
I grabbed my (new) phone and made a group chat.
Including: Lindsey, Ray, Mikey, Frank, Frank and Gerard.
I made the group chat name:
Bye Loves
I typed in the group chat.
"I'm sorry for the things I've done and I know I can't un do them.
I didn't mean for all this to happen, this random girl comes into your life and become friends with you, come close to you, and ruins it all.
They crush everything you had with that person.
I know I'm not the kind of person that would do that.
But I proved it.
I hurt my best friends, not mentally but also physically.
I had never thought I would done something like that.
I hate Chris so much. I would kill him if I could.
He took my virginity the first day I became 'girlfriend and boyfriends' with him.
And he's being doing it every two days from them.
It hurts so much and I can't describe how much I'm sorry.
I'm so depressed and everyone I think about you guys I break down crying.
But sometimes I can't even cry because I have cried too much.
So I won't be bothering you anymore at all.
I love you all.
I love you all so so so so much.
I hope you all go to heaven and live with a happy family when you're older.
I wish you the best of luck.
I'll be in hell, and that's where I deserve to be.
I love you.
Goodbye."
I pressed sent.
I walked my way into the bathroom and got out my razor blade which I had made especially sharp.
I made cuts along my arms and my thighs. I even put them in places that I have never before.
My stomach, my legs and even my forehead.
I grabbed the loaded gun and and stared at it.
My shakey hands guided the gun to my mouth.
"I love you Gerard."
I blacked out.
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--Gerard's POV--
I got a notification, from a group chat called 'Bye'
I opened the chat and saw a long message from.. Y/N.
I read the message and screamed.
I was shaking so hard.
I didn't bother to get dressed, I was in pjs which were fine anyway.
I ran out the door.
"Gerard!" Mikey called from behind me.
I ran as fast as I could to Y/Ns house.
The front door was wide open and I knew something was very wrong.
I knew she would always lock the door.
I ran as quickly as I could shouting her name.
I made it too her door and barged my way inside her bedroom.
I saw that the bed was unmade and her phone was placed on top of her pillow.
I looked around and didn't see her.
So I checked her bathroom.
I was so scared.
I walked slowly towards the door and could see that there was blood coming from the bathroom and leaking into her white carpet of her bedroom.
No.
She couldnt of have.
I swung open the door and saw her.
She was wet and naked in a kneeling position but her head was completely down.
There was a gun in her mouth but it obviously didn't work as her head wasn't completely across the bathroom tiles.
But there was blood leaking from her everywhere.
Her forehand, thighs and legs, her wrists and stomach.
A pool of blood was surrounding her.
My vision went completely blurry then.
"Gerard!" Mikey called my name and opened the door, his expression completely dropped from a frown Into a expression which was like he had seen a ghost.
I dropped to my knees and hugged her.
"I-I'm calling t-the c-cops the a-ambulance" Mikey quickly dialled the number in his phone making the call and talking to the person.
I couldn't understand him though as my thoughts were focused on the poor girl in front of me.

Y/N.