"𝑖 𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑠𝑜 𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒"
in love with the bad boy doesn't always go to plan, read as sarah, topper, rafe and y/n travel to the bahamas after findi...
"home sweet home" i said to isla as we opened the door to our house after coming home from the hospital.
"welcome home isla cameron" we all chorused
"can i show her the nursery?" rafe asked excitedly, i loved how rafe acted once his tough shield had been broken down
"yeah" i said smiling slightly, almost forgetting the amount of times he fucked me over but then i remembered and a hurt expression overtook the smile.
"what's up?" rafe asked when he noticed my expression
"nothing" i said bluntly, moving my body away from him which caused him to sigh and walk away to the nursery with isla
i rolled my eyes and walked over to sarah who was sitting alone at the dining table.
rafes pov~
"what's up with her?" i whispered to isla as i walked away from y/n with isla in my arms
i walked up the stairs towards isla's nursery.
"here it is" i said as i opened the nursery door
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( ^^^ it looks like that)
i smiled at isla's nursery as so many memories of me and y/n decorating it months ago flooded back.
flashback:
"she's gonna love this" y/n said admiring the room, i loved the look that flashed across her face when she loved something. i had often caught her looking at me like that.
"not as much as i love you" i said kissing her nose
"lies" she said adjusting her dungarees
i grinned at her and wrestled her to the ground but making sure that i didn't hurt her or the baby in her stomach.
"stoppp your messing up my hair" she complained but she struggled to get the words out because she was laughing so much
"you always look beautiful" i said grinning at her
"shut up" she said turning away and blushing at my comment.
"i love you" i said looking her in her beautiful yes
"i love you too" she said playing with my hair gently
"and you" i said kissing her bump and beginning to tickle her which caused her to keel over. i loved the sound of her laugh.
end of flashback:
i noticed that my eyes had begun tearing up at the memory. and isla was just looking up at me expectantly.
"hey your awake" i sniffed wiping my eyes
"sup rafe" topper said coming into the room
"sup top" i said smiling at him
"so your a dad now" topper said laughing
"yeah, pretty crazy right?" i said smiling at isla
"yeah, how's things with y/n" he asked. when he said her name butterflies started flying around in my stomach
"she still hates me i guess" i said shrugging and trying not to act like it bothered me, but it did, it made me want to die thinking about the fact that i might have permanently messed things up with the love of my life
"it gets better" he said patting my back as he saw i was close to tears
"i will make it right" i assured him
"you just need to love her enough to let her go. she deserves better man" topper said looking at me with a guilty look "you don't want isla growing up with a druggie for a father do you?" he asked
"no" i confessed, my voice beginning to break
"then let her go" topper said walking out the room
"can you take isla please i just need some time alone?" i asked, trying to keep myself together until he leaves
"sure" he said giving me an awkward smile and taking her from my arms
as he left the room i put my head in my hands and began to cry. i knew that i had to let her go but i couldn't she was my everything. what would i do without her? as more thoughts ran through my brain the more i cried.
y/n pov-
"oh hey top" i said looking up from my conversation with sarah
"hey" he said smiling at me, i noticed that he had isla in his arms
"why do you have isla, wheres rafe?" i asked beginning to get worried
"he's upstairs in the nursery, he asked for alone time" he said shrugging
"ok" i said smiling at him and getting isla then walking up the stairs to find rafe
i opened the door and saw rafe sat in the armchair next to isla's crib, he was crying. a sensation of pain rushes through my body, the sight of seeing him crying broke my heart. and the fact that i knew i was the reason why broke my heart even more. i leaned against the doorframe and watched him for a moment trying to figure out what i would say to him.
"rafe" i whispered because isla had fallen asleep again, she was the easiest baby i had ever seen she didn't cry very much.
"shit" he said when he saw that i was standing in the room watching him crying
"it's ok" i said making my way over to him and placing isla into the cot next to him before sitting on the arm of the seat he was in.
"i'm sorry i just-" he began
"no it's ok i get it" i said stroking his hair
"i failed you and isla" he said, his voice breaking when he said our daughters name
