Poems about Love

was it real?

I don't remember the first time that
My eyes fell on you.
It just happened,
No planning,
No searching for reasons to like you.

You were good at speaking to people,
Treating them right,
You were smart, funny, and artistic.
You were perfect.

I fell for you from afar.
Only if I knew that you were taken,
I would have been less heartbroken.

"Love is complicated
But that's what makes it beautiful."

Even so I'd say, everything seems beautiful until it gets complicated.
I watched you watching me while you were sitting next to her.
I caught you looking at me in between classes,
And when we crossed paths in the hallways.
I thought you liked me too.
But you were still with her,
Even though you weren't.

Although we became friends,
Everyday I desired for us to be more than this.
We understood each other,
Saw the flaws, scars, and bad days.
This time, you fell for me.

I'd waited for you long enough,
And the right time arrived eventually.
You put forward a grand gesture
To show how much I meant to you.

Every single time you came closer,
My heart didn't skip beats,
It was peaceful.
I felt calm in your presence.

Each time we hugged,
I would bury my head in your chest
Like it was the safest place I could ever be in.
Moreover I could hear you sniffing on my shampoo
And I would smile to myself.

You planned out our first date.
You knew I loved puppies and dogs,
So you took me to a dog cafe.
I spend the whole time playing with the puppies like I were a kid.
I had the most wonderful pictures of myself clicked by you on this day.
I remember how your heartbeat sounded when I laid my head on your chest on our way back home.
That day, you made me believe that
I was your inamorata.

With each day that passed by,
We loved each other a lil more.
We expressed love for each other in our own ways,
Had our share of arguments,
And still stood by each other.

This connection felt faultless.
We could communicate our needs and desires,
Our boundaries,
Respect each other's time
And loved one another.
Yet, we fell apart.

I know this parting of ways,
Though mutual,
It was hard for both of us.
Atleast I thought so.
We complimented one another so well,
But still it hadn't worked out.

I will never stop loving him.
He's been a huge part of my life,
He has a special place in my heart,
And I can never get myself to hate him.

My life has a void now.
Every time I visit a place,
I remember the times that we'd gone there together.
Every time I eat something,
I remember the way we'd fed each other.
This vacant space cannot be filled by anyone else
Cause he's set the standard so high,
That I can never get myself to love someone
The way I loved him.

I drive past his house,
His room lights are on
And I know he is not alone.
I always made love to him,
But he made lies.
I hope he's not making lies anymore.

Even to this day, I remember him,
Love him, and miss him.
Today, when I look at myself in the mirror,
I comprehend the beautiful wedding dress,
I remember the conversations we used to have planning out our big day.
I take in the way my eyes are-
Deepest, richest shade of brown,
That's how he described them.
And a small amount of kohl,
Just how he loved.
I appreciate the way my hair is done-
Wild curls,
The way he adored them.
I see how my lipstick looks perfect,
Which is in his favorite shade,
But there is no smile on my mouth.
I notice the bouquet of flowers that I'm holding,
Tulips, roses and sunflowers,
My favored flowers that he used to
Gift me to convey his feelings.
It feels like my fate is mocking me.

I am a bride today,
But he is not my groom.
I am someone else's 'Love of my life',
But I don't even know if
I was his 'Love of my life'.